Lately I've been eating tons and tons. I don't know if I'm just bored or what. I really need to start eating better but its hard for me. I like to eat things that are easy to just grab and eat. I also will choose junk food over healthy food if its right in front of me. I need help. Any former junk food junkies got any advice?

Only a couple more days until I leave and I'm going back to work tomorrow and Tuesday. I'm way excited to leave and glad I'm I get to go back to work. I just dont' feel like it tomorrow. Oh well it should make the next to days go by faster. I hope.

I am happy and ready to do something. I guess that's because I just watched "MADE" and I get to go back to work. I'm moving to Texas. I'm ready to Rock N Roll.

I'm having a lot trouble this eveing. I feel very very lonely. I guess lately I've been thinking to much about my parents, my childhood, the friends I use to have. Jason is all I need besides the Lord. Its hard when Jason's not here though. I don't have anyone to be with. I don't even have anything to write. I just do it because I have no one else to talk to. I miss Jason and I am sad.

You know I probably haven't lost any weight since I've been walking the dogs tons. I feel like I have. I think my stomach has gotten flatter. Anyways at least I feel better about myself. I'm going to keep it up and move up to jogging soon enough.

Okay so I'm really bored. I'm leaving on vacation in a about a week. I've bee laid off of work for a who knows how long. I've been trying to do my best to stay busy. Just been walking the dogs and getting ready for the big move. I wish there was something that would help make the time go by fast. I haven't got anything to even think about. Why can't I enjoy haven't two weeks off like everyone else. I guess I'm just a boring person with nothing to do.

In the book of Jeremiah there are two chapters that I have read so far that talk about the Queen of Heaven. The Jews were were worshiping this idol known as the queen of heaven. God was very displeased at this. I went to google.com and I did a search on the Queen of Heaven. Why is it that Virgin Mary is known as the Queen of Heaven? Did the Jews not just get in trouble for this so many years ago. Yet today we have found away to continue to worship her. Even my own mother a couple of weeks ago gave roses as an offering to the Virgin Mary. Why are so many people mislead. Please read your bibles so you will know that Jesus is the way.

Its tough living in this world today. There are so many bad things around us. So many people are so use to it that it doesn't even bother them. Why do we choose to posion our mades with all this things. On the television you can't find a decent show. All of them either promote darwinism, sex, materialism, or voilence. Most video games you just walk around and kill people. Music video usually have a bunch people dacing around almost naked. Magazine just talk about how to make yourself more desireable, or materalism. Music is so bad one of the songs I heard today on the radio sai, "Denie your creator." You just can't get away from it. YOu can't escape the posion unless you become a hermit.

I'm bummed. I miss Jason, even though I think he think I don't love him like I use to.  I love him so much and I miss him so much.  Spending all this time alone in my house doing nothing can get you down.  I know the Lord is with me where ever I go. People are ment to be social though. That is why Eve was made for Adam so he wouldn't be so lonely. My family is too busy to spend time with each other. My husband is doing his best so that we can get by.  Here I am living my life for God the best that I can. I'm not doing a great job but I'm trying. I listen to his word but I don't do it enough. I feel like I'm just sitting here waiting to get on our feet. I either want to start a family or get started on school. Something, I'm tired of going to work Monday-Friday and then coming home on the weekends waiting for two weeks to go by so that Jason can finally come home.  I want to work at a job where I can help people with their personal problems. Or I want to start having a family. I guess I really want to start having a family because my family doesn't spend time with me. There are very few times where my family actually did stuff as a family. Woes me-today I am sad, but I am grateful for the Lord or else I couldn't make it through today.

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Jeremiah 29:13

Their tongue is a deadly arrow; it speaks with deceit. With his mouth each speaks cordially to his neighbor, but in his heart he sets a trap for him. "Should I not punich them for this?" declares the Lord. "Should I not avenge myself on such a nation as this?" Jeremiah 9:8,9

 

These verses made me think about how sometimes people think that everything is about themselves. They may think, "man I really hate so and so" or " he really bugs me." Some times even worse thoughts and later we talk to God like we are all buddy buddy with him. Do you think that he is please with the way we think about other people? Do you think he agrees with our our earthly views of someone else? Or do you think that he greives how cruel our hearts can be?  That we think this whole world revolves around us. How someone else should change because we don't like this or that about them. We do not see their whole lives we can't judge the way they are acting and justify our opinions about them.

Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the Lord. Jermiah 1:8

But your iniquities have spearated you from your God; your sins have hidden his face from you, so that he will not hear. For your hands are stained with blood your fingers with guilt. Your lips have spken lies, and your tongue mutters wicked things. no one calls for justice; no one pleads his case with integrity. They rely one empty arugments and speak lies; they conceive trouble and give birth to evil. Isaiah 59:2-4